Working on The Undoing took both a physical and mental toll on Nicole Kidman.
On the HBO whodunit, the 53-year-old actress portrayed therapist Grace Fraser whose husband Jonathan Fraser (Hugh Grant) is investigated for murder.
And Nicole has revealed she was "really sick" and struggled with a "disquietness" to her own “personality" where she couldn't tell the difference between "acting and truth” during filming.
Discussing the impact her shows, including HBO's Big Little Lies, have on her mental health, Nicole told Marc Maron’s WTF With Marc Maron podcast: “Even on ‘The Undoing’ it kind of happened where I just like suddenly was in this place of … There was sort of a disquietness to my personality, where I was uneasy and there was duress on who I was.”
She added: “I went down for a week, because your immune system it doesn’t know the difference between acting and truth when you’re doing them.”
The Oscar-winner admitted that while other actors can make their body know the difference between acting and reality: “It doesn’t really work for me.”
Elsewhere, Nicole recalled another traumatic experience in her life when her Eyes Wide Shut director, Stanley Kubrick, died in 1999.
She had received a fax from the filmmaker the night before he died asking her to give him a call, but she never got around to it.
Nicole recalled of being informed of his passing: “I just started screaming, I collapsed on the ground. I was that close to him.”
Since then, she has a "huge fear" of late night phone calls.
Nicole continued: “I have a huge fear of phone calls in the night now, because I’ve received a number of them with that sort of news, my father included.”
Nicole's clinical psychologist father, Dr Antony Kidman, died in Singapore in 2005 from a heart attack.
The Bombshell actress’ ex-husband and co-star, Tom Cruise, supported her through the trauma and she also revealed she would fly off to Sydney or Paris when she was on standby and once got caught out when Stanley asked her to join the set in the UK.
She remembered: “Tom was like, ‘Aww, we’re screwed. You’re going to have to call Stanley.'
“So I was like, ‘Stanley, I’m sorry. I’m actually not in the house, I’m in Sydney,’ and he goes, ‘Unfaithful woman.’”
The Undoing is now streaming on HBO Go.
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