Fakkah Fuzz On How He Rebuilt Himself From Scratch After A “Massive-Ass Heartbreak” Last Year

You know him for his stand-up comedy routines, his podcast, and maybe even his huge grudge against Singapore’s cutest critters — our wild otters.

But in the latest episode of Class 95 DJ Jean Danker’s mental wellness podcast, R U Okay?, comedian Fakkah Fuzz, 36, sat down, and got real about how the past year’s been a journey of growth and rediscovering himself.

Speaking about his stand-up routines, Fakkah first shared that it feels “very personal” to receive criticism about his comedy.

"You see, the thing with stand-up right, if people criticise you, they don’t criticise your art. They criticise you. They don’t hate your joke, they hate you. it’s very personal. For a musician, you can separate them from the music, but for stand-up, [you can’t],” he said.

“[I realised that] I cannot find my happiness from being on stage and getting the adulation, I have to find my happiness within, by myself, in the form of hobbies or small goals. And honestly, it’s been a concept that I only learnt in my 30s. I had to go through a massive-ass heartbreak for me to rebuild my character from scratch,” he continued.

Watch the video below for the full conversation. Our story continues after that.

Speaking about his relationship, Fakkah shared about how learning to let go of the other party helped him as a person.

“For that relationship, I decided (…) to commit, a hundred percent. And to be fair, we both tried. So we tried, to a point where she got the courage to be like: 'You know what. I’ve already tried enough. I don’t think this works. I think we’re two completely different people, and we need to go our separate ways to grow.' And the heartbreak in that, was really just the ego of: 'Oh man, I thought I had this.' And the whole idea of this dream, this life that you wanted to build [together],” he said.

Injecting a dose of humour into his truth bomb, Fakkah continued: "But to come out of that, is really character building. You have to now look inwards and go, okay, if everything fails, then maybe you’re the crazy one.”

Fakkah went on to share that he was initially worried that there’ll be “a lot of resentment and hate” when they crossed paths post-breakup, especially since both of them work in the entertainment industry. Though Fakkah doesn't reveal his ex-girlfriend's name on the show, he used to date singer Aisyah Aziz.

"But honestly man… You know how cliche it is when they say when you love somebody, you let her go? You really have to let it go. It’s not ownership! And I had to learn that, my male ego had to learn that. But learning that, it just makes you grow so much. It makes you understand the true meaning of it,” he said.

"Sometimes, you share a good moment with someone, and sometimes that moment has an expiry date. It’s not that you guys weren’t meant for each other, it’s just you were meant for each other at that time, and now that time has passed,” he added.

And now, the comedian is all about self-love, sharing that he has decided to focus on himself instead, to figure out what makes him happy.

"It’s a very long process, ‘cos it’s not easy to make yourself happy in your own capacity,” he said, adding: ""Now I’m trying to unlearn that habit [of being a people pleaser]. When you’re in showbiz, you always want to please everybody. so I had to unlearn that, to not people please and just be happy with yourself."

So, what makes him happy now?

Apart from having his own time, Fakkah’s found out that he’s quite an accomplished cook too.

“I make a mean butter chicken, I make a mean ayam kicap,” he listed, laughing that he only cooks Malay dishes ‘cos he can’t get those dishes overseas.

Oh, and for those of you out there who might have experienced the same thing, here’s a word of advice from Fakkah, who’s quite literally been there, done that.

"There is always a way out. You just have to wait. Just wait for the right moment. It feels like forever, but trust me, it’s not. When you get out of it, and you look back, it’s like: 'Dang I did that? I went through that?' And the person that comes out of you experiencing all that is a new and completely improved version of yourself.”

Catch Season 1 of R U Okay? on meWATCH here. Watch the full video below to find out just why Fakkah hates otters so much.

Photos: Fakkah Fuzz/Instagram, R U Okay?/Youtube