Chrissy Teigen is suffering from “the crushing weight of regret” following the bullying accusations against her.
In May, the Lip Sync Battle star published a series of tweets apologising to model and reality TV personality Courtney Stodden, who accused her of online bullying.
After taking a break from social media, Chrissy returned to publish an open letter on Medium on Monday (June 14), where she said she is continuing the process of “privately reaching out to the people [she] insulted” in the past.
She wrote: "Hi all. It has been a VERY humbling few weeks. I know I've been quiet, and lord knows you don't want to hear about me, but I want you to know I've been sitting in a hole of deserved global punishment, the ultimate ‘sit here and think about what you've done.' Not a day, not a single moment has passed where I haven't felt the crushing weight of regret for the things I've said in the past.
“I've apologized publicly to one person, but there are others—and more than just a few— who I need to say I'm sorry to. I'm in the process of privately reaching out to the people I insulted. It's like my own version of that show My Name is Earl! I understand that they may not want to speak to me. I don't think I'd like to speak to me. (The real truth in all of this is how much I actually cannot take confrontation.) But if they do, I am here and I will listen to what they have to say, while apologizing through sobs. (sic)”
Chrissy went on to admit there is “no excuse” for the comments she made, but said she was “insecure and immature” at the time.
She added: "There is simply no excuse for my past horrible tweets. My targets didn't deserve them. No one does. Many of them needed empathy, kindness, understanding and support, not my meanness masquerading as a kind of casual, edgy humor. I was a troll, full stop. And I am so sorry.
“In reality, I was insecure, immature and in a world where I thought I needed to impress strangers to be accepted. If there was a pop culture pile-on, I took to Twitter to try to gain attention and show off what I at the time believed was a crude, clever, harmless quip. I thought it made me cool and relatable if I poked fun at celebrities."
The model ended her lengthy post by asking her fans for patience rather than forgiveness.
She said: "I won't ask for your forgiveness, only your patience and tolerance. I ask that you allow me, as I promise to allow you, to own past mistakes and be given the opportunity to seek self-improvement and change."
Chrissy became embroiled in the bullying scandal in May after Courtney revealed in a Daily Beast interview that Chrissy sent them cruel direct messages, such as “I can’t wait for you to die.” Chrissy has not posted on social media since she first apologised on May 12.
is nothing compared to how I made Courtney feel. I have worked so hard to give you guys joy and be beloved and the feeling of letting you down is nearly unbearable, truly. These were not my only mistakes and surely won’t be my last as hard as I try but god I will try!!— chrissy teigen (@chrissyteigen) May 12, 2021
And I am so sorry I let you guys down. I will forever work on being better than I was 10 years ago, 1 year ago, 6 months ago.— chrissy teigen (@chrissyteigen) May 12, 2021
Shortly after, she dropped out of a voice role in the second season of Netflix’s Never Have I Ever, which is slated to drop July 15. — BANG SHOWBIZ
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